Hi there, I’m Mrs Mac and I got sober on 1 April 2016. I didn’t know at the time that this was going to be the day I stopped drinking, for good. There had been many failed attempts in the past. The only thing I knew, was that I always drank more than I wanted too and, I couldn’t stop. I wasn’t happy and I was totally sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.
I was a daily drinker, which sounds a lot, but all that meant was that I enjoyed a couple of glass of wine after work, every night. That doesn’t sound so bad, right? Until, it turned into a bottle of wine every night and more on a weekend. If I had no wine, it would be beer or vodka; I didn’t care.
It didn’t matter how many times I promised myself that I’d have a night off the booze or even just cut back. As soon as wine o’clock came round, I’d be reaching straight for the bottle again.
I did not have any rock bottom; I just consistently drank more than I wanted too. My failed attempts at stopping or cutting back was making me feel full of shame. My self-esteem was at its lowest ever because I just couldn’t seem to stop. I was starting to lie about the amount I drank; I even hid the empty bottles from my family. All that I could think of was, why could I not control my drinking? Then I realised, the only way to control my drinking was to stop drinking.
Once I stopped drinking alcohol and managed to string a few sober days together, the alcohol induced fog began to lift. I realised that alcohol was keeping me stuck. Stuck from experiencing new things; stuck from learning more about myself and others around me, stuck from living a full life. Putting down my glass and getting sober made me feel like I was eventually living my life for real. It made me feel like Neo in The Matrix after he took the red pill. The way I viewed my world changed forever; for the better.
You can read my sober journey from the first day of getting sober onward, here on my Sober Diary . If you can see yourself in me or if any part of my story resonates with you, then I hope you know you are not alone. If sharing my sober struggles and achievements helps just one person on their sober journey it’ll be worth it.
Mrs Mac x