I Need Routine – Day 518

Wow, we are coming to the end of the kids 6 weeks holidays here. It has been great, lots of family time, walking, camping and picnic’s etc. However, as much as I’ve loved our time off, I have been feeling low recently. A feeling of, can’t be bothered. Lethargic, I guess. If I get out for a walk or into the fresh air with the kid’s I feel better. I couldn’t work out why I was feeling like this especially when I’m on holiday, but then it hit me a few days ago. I’m bored.

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Sober and Strong – Day 445

The warmer weather has arrived. This time last year I was about 80 days sober and had not long come back from my first successful sober summer holiday. I remember struggling with the whole warm weather/holiday/beer garden cravings. At the time I had to exercise some serious sober muscles. I drank loads of AF beer, blogged and ate lots of chocolate to cope.

This year by comparison, is so much easier.

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Use Your Sober Tools – Day 394

I’ve been meaning to post for a few weeks now but haven’t. I’m not sure why because at the moment I keep thinking about drinking, so this is the perfect time to blog. Maybe it’s my booze brain conspiring against me.

I’m not seriously going to drink but I am definitely romanticising the idea more than usual. If I sit with the thought, I quickly come to the conclusion that it is a bad idea. I don’t want to go back to Day1. I don’t want to risk going back to being that person who hides bottles around the house. However, the idea of drinking keeps popping back into my head, like it wouldn’t be that bad. What’s going on?

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Amazing Hubby – Day 367

I never got a chance to mention this on my Sober Anniversary but Mr Mac surprised me with a lovely card and bar of chocolate. Just to say how proud of me his is. I could have cried (I just about did).

I have mentioned to Mr Mac previously that I would be a year sober on 1st April but I never made a big deal of it. I’m not entirely sure he truly understands how bad my drinking got. There are parts of it I have never fully admitted too, like the hiding of vodka bottles. Though I’m sure he has his suspicions.

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11 Months today!

Just checking in really. Still sober and cannot believe it is 11 months today. My year is so close. Like a lot of you, I feel like I want to do something or treat me self to something for my first sober anniversary. I think I need to give this some serious thought over the next 4 weeks. I have had a few moments of “is this forever?”. But I believe this is because my year is so close, not because I actually want a drink. I think it is the Wine Witch giving it one last push to trick me into having a drink.

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AA or Not – Day 315

I have been going to AA every week for the past 2 months (since 10th December 2016). At the beginning it was twice a week but once I started work last month it had to be once a week. Once I got over my initial nerves, I have always enjoyed the meetings. The one I go to is quite small anything from 5 to 10 people attend. It has been easier to get to know people than the larger groups.

I decided to go to AA because I am always curious about what other help is out there and because I was feeling rather lonely at the time.

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