What Next? – Day 91

I had my last drink on March 31st 2016 so by the end of today I will be 3 months sober.

Even though 3 months isn’t a massive amount of time in the grand scheme of things. I do feel like I have come a long way since my Day 1. I’m starting to get to know myself better. Through all my sober firsts, I’m learning to live my life properly and deal with occasions and situations sober. It isn’t always easy but the more I do it the better equipped I feel the next time.

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AF Beer – Day 82

There’s not a lot happening in my world at the moment, I’m just happily plodding along. I’m sober and I’m happy.

One observation though. While doing the food shop this morning, I bypassed the wine aisle (no cravings) but I felt weird going up the beer aisle for some AF beer. I felt guilty like I was doing something wrong, like someone was going to jump out and shout ‘caught you!’

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Party Girl – Day 75

Last weekend was my Sister’s, ‘80’s themed’ 40th Birthday Party. Me, hubby and the kids got dressed up, 80’s style, and drove over to her house. I was prepared. I was armed with AF beer for me and Hubby (hubby just didn’t fancy a drink that night) We brought the car, so I had an escape plan and I’d pre-warned hubby that we would not stay late.

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Reflection – Day 70

The days are passing very quickly now. It doesn’t seem that long ago that I was painstakingly counting my early days of sobriety, wishing them to go faster, so I could get more alcohol-free days under my belt. I also used to clock watch continuously, especially during ‘Wine O’ Clock’. In the first month of sobriety I must have been obsessed with time.

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Home – Day 64

I am back in England after having a wonderful family holiday in the sun. Did I drink? No! Was I tempted? Yes, at the beginning. Holidays and sunshine are definitely my biggest triggers. From walking through duty-free at the airport, the couple in front of me on the flight downing their G&T’s, to the complimentary bottle of red wine in our villa, it was just right in my face from the get go.

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Sun, Sea and No Sangria – Day 54

Two more days until we go on our family holiday. Our own villa and pool for one whole week in the sun. I cannot wait. However, I’ll be honest, I’m feeling nervous. I keep telling myself that this time away will be great without alcohol! But I’ve never had a holiday in the sun without booze before. I don’t want to drink but I am worried this will be my biggest trigger yet.

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No More Dry Retching for This Girl – Day 50

I wanted to write about what’s good at the moment. Get some things on paper so to speak. So I can look back at my journey and see the good things, as well as the struggles.

On Day 24 I wrote a post called ‘Grateful’ and it makes me smile when I read it. However, there is so much more to be grateful for and many reasons why being sober rules!

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‘Real’ Sober Friends – Day 47

I love all my soberverse friends out there. Finding people from all over the world, going through the same experiences as myself is amazing. and having that connection is just what I need. I’m finding myself spending more and more time, submerging myself into this world. Blogging, commenting, reading and listening. I think I’m spending so much of my spare time in this world because I don’t have any ‘real’ sober friends to talk to. Or perhaps I just don’t feel ready to talk to anyone about my drinking problem who hasn’t got some sort of understanding of what I’m going through.

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Ranty Rant Rant Rant – Day 43

As we enter into the weekend, I want to get a few things off my chest. Nothing major, quite the opposite.

Do I drink AF beer? It is alcohol free (AF) but for some reason, this time round, I have avoided buying/drinking AF beer. I prefer just to have a juice or my favourite, cranberry, lime and soda. So why am I thinking about it? I don’t know. I’ve never been a beer drinker; I am definitely a wine lover. The AF wine does nothing for me. Mainly because it is too sweet and not like a dry chardonnay at all. However, I do think the AF beer (like Becks Blue) does taste like beer.

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A Stressful Day – Day 40

I’m still here and I’m still sober.

Today has been difficult.  Work has been very stressful today. Instead of downing tools when the kids came home, like I usually do. I got fixated on finishing my job. I don’t know why, it just felt like I had to get it finished before I could relax. So, all evening between kids homework, cooking dinner and various bedtime’s, I have been dashing off to do a little bit more work.

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