It’s been a while. I was meant to do a post for my 1000 days which fell just around Christmas but things got busy. I’m still sober and still happy.
Mr Mac is nearing his 6 month sober mark and I am very proud of him. He has been listening to the ‘One Year No Beer’ podcast which has totally changed his thinking. His mind set has changed somewhat, and he doesn’t understand why anyone would choose to drink as he is more productive and happier sober. It is lovely to see but I am conscious not to link my sobriety to his. We are on two very different journeys.
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Come on Spring, where are you? I am sure I suffer a little from SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). I’ve been up and down for the past few months. One minute, I want to be left alone; hibernate as I can hardly muster up the energy to do anything. Then the next minute I’m pissed off I never go anywhere or do anything fun! I cannot win eh!
My anxiety is pushing back. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by things that don’t usually bother me. Kids school commitments and finding a new hairdresser. Talk about first world problems.
Continue reading “S.A.D – Day 711”
My son left on Saturday to go to France for one week on a school skiing trip. I am finding it difficult to say the least. Many times over the weekend I have sat with uncomfortable feelings of loss and anxiety. I worry if he is okay and enjoying himself.
Here is a list of things I’m worried about.
Continue reading “Dealing with Uncomfortable Feelings – Day 662”
Today I needed to get out of my own head so I decided to write this at work. I wasn’t going to publish it but it was how I was feeling at the time. Sometimes I just have dark days and writing helps, so why not publish it? I feel better even if I haven’t figured anything out yet.
Here’s What I Wrote
Continue reading “Getting Out of My Own Head – Day 542”
Oh my God, I did it. I actually went to my first AA meeting yesterday. It was the same one I tried to go to last Friday but bailed. I was really nervous, but got there early and popped my head in and said “is there a meeting here at 12.30?”.
Continue reading “My First Meeting – Day 253”
I tried to go to my first AA meeting today. I’ve been trying to pluck up the courage for 8 months now. I found a meeting near me which was a woman’s meeting.
The hard part was telling my husband. I felt I couldn’t go without telling him first, as it would feel dishonest. He was great. He did ask if I thought I needed it (I still don’t think he truly grasps how bad I was) I said I wasn’t sure but it was something I’ve been wanting to try for a little while.
Continue reading “Emotional – Day 245”