Easter Weekend in Lockdown – Day 1473

Over this Lockdown Easter Weekend it has felt hard not seeing my parents and my sisters and their families.

Normally, I would have planned a visit to my sisters over the Easter Holidays to catch up and swap Easter Eggs with the children. My parents would have been invited to our house on Easter Sunday for lunch. There would have been drives out for family walks or even a weekend away somewhere.

However, during lockdown none of this can happen. I don’t want to dwell on what I cannot do though. That is too easy and does not actually help me. When I find things which are out of my control, I try to focus on what is in my control.

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The Serenity Prayer – Day 1459

In my first year of Sobriety I went to AA for a couple of months. This is where I came across the Serenity Prayer for the first time.

These simple words resonated with me immediately upon hearing them. Their meaning hit me somewhere deep inside and I have never forgotten them since.

When I find myself facing a difficult situation and getting overwhelmed, I quietly say these words to myself.

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The Goal is to Feel Good! – Day 1417

This morning, I took a walk with my husband. Not a very exciting walk. We dropped the car off at the local garage and walked back home. However, we did go via Costa for a coffee which was good!

I enjoy walking and getting outside in the fresh air. It makes me feel good physically and mentally. I realise that it doesn’t even matter where I walk. What matters is just moving my body and being outdoors.

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Patience – Day 1318

I’ve been trying to be more aware of when I should pause and listen and wait for the right time to speak. I often rush or try to juggle too many things at once. Like cooking tea while answering friends’ messages and helping the kids with homework. I think I am being efficient but I usually come off looking harassed; getting a bit stressed and definitely not giving people the attention they deserve.

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Sober and Strong – Day 445

The warmer weather has arrived. This time last year I was about 80 days sober and had not long come back from my first successful sober summer holiday. I remember struggling with the whole warm weather/holiday/beer garden cravings. At the time I had to exercise some serious sober muscles. I drank loads of AF beer, blogged and ate lots of chocolate to cope.

This year by comparison, is so much easier.

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Attack of PAWS? – Day 214

Well I’m rubbish at posting at the moment. I don’t know why, if anything I should have posted sooner as I’ve been having some cravings lately. It’s just been fleeting thoughts of “wouldn’t a glass of wine be nice”. It’s really thrown me because I don’t want to have any wine. However, it still makes me question my sobriety and ‘forever’. I haven’t had thoughts like this for ages, so why now? and why so frequently?

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Sleepless – Day 5

I need to talk about my brain not switching off on a night time. All day yesterday I felt unfocused and not able to think straight. A few thoughts of alcohol had popped into my head but I think that was more habit than cravings at the moment. However, on a night time, boy does my brain come alive. Not in a stressed-out way, like when you’re worried about something but rather just random thoughts popping in and out, constant noise!

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