Use Your Sober Tools – Day 394

I’ve been meaning to post for a few weeks now but haven’t. I’m not sure why because at the moment I keep thinking about drinking, so this is the perfect time to blog. Maybe it’s my booze brain conspiring against me.

I’m not seriously going to drink but I am definitely romanticising the idea more than usual. If I sit with the thought, I quickly come to the conclusion that it is a bad idea. I don’t want to go back to Day1. I don’t want to risk going back to being that person who hides bottles around the house. However, the idea of drinking keeps popping back into my head, like it wouldn’t be that bad. What’s going on?

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AA or Not – Day 315

I have been going to AA every week for the past 2 months (since 10th December 2016). At the beginning it was twice a week but once I started work last month it had to be once a week. Once I got over my initial nerves, I have always enjoyed the meetings. The one I go to is quite small anything from 5 to 10 people attend. It has been easier to get to know people than the larger groups.

I decided to go to AA because I am always curious about what other help is out there and because I was feeling rather lonely at the time.

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Thank You Bloggersphere – Day 249

This Bloggersphere is amazing. On Friday, I felt very emotional and low. I had no one to talk to, so I wrote my post hoping that writing about my day would help me feel better. What I didn’t expect was all your comments of kindness and support. Sharing your own experiences with me, made me feel less alone and much stronger. Even though we all come from different parts of the world, I feel like I can truly relate to each one of you and I want to say a big Thank You – You all need to come live in England (UK).

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Making It Work For you – Day 168

I have been meaning to post something for the past two weeks. I vowed I’d get back into blogging once the kids went back to school and normality resumed. However, every time I get the chance to write something, I start to over think it. I ask myself, Is it such a big deal? Am I that bothered anymore? Every time I go to write and get something off my chest, the thing I was going to write about just doesn’t seem important anymore. Well it’s just dawned on me that this is probably a good thing. It shows that I must be dealing with stuff and coping without the need to blog about it every two minutes, right? Well that’s the spin I’m going to put on it.

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Just Go with The Flow – Day 133

Well I have made more of an effort this week with catching up and reading blogs. It has helped. The cravings, which were starting to become daily have calmed down and I just feel stronger in my sobriety again.

This week I have learned that I need to just go with the flow a bit more. I love to plan and I don’t like it when my plans are changed. For example. The other day I planned a nice family dinner followed by a family movie night. However, part way through the day we were invited to a BBQ. My first reaction was “I’m not going”. Imagine proper stroppy teenager face. Needless to say, we went and it was fun, we even did our movie night the following day so win win. So why was my instinctive reaction to say No?

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I Need to Check In – Day 125

I’m still here and still sober but I have found it extremely difficult to post or even read any blogs since the kids broke up for their summer holidays. Routines are well and truly out the window. At first, I loved the freedom of the holidays and not thinking too much about the Soberverse or my blog. However, over the past few days I have missed it and I think I need it. I feel on edge sometimes. I don’t want to drink and I’m not going to, but I feel off balance.

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What Next? – Day 91

I had my last drink on March 31st 2016 so by the end of today I will be 3 months sober.

Even though 3 months isn’t a massive amount of time in the grand scheme of things. I do feel like I have come a long way since my Day 1. I’m starting to get to know myself better. Through all my sober firsts, I’m learning to live my life properly and deal with occasions and situations sober. It isn’t always easy but the more I do it the better equipped I feel the next time.

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