I’m still here and I’m still sober.
A few things have happened this week where I’ve actually been grateful I’m sober. Nothing dramatic, just small stuff but I just wanted to get it down on paper.
One of my kids had a nosebleed in the middle of the night. I was able to deal with it quickly and sympathetically. I was coherent and there for them, properly. In the past I would have blundered around in the dark trying to help, while actually trying to get back to bed as soon as I could to sleep the booze off.
I have helped with so much homework, actually planning it into our week properly, so it all got done. It always used to be quite stressful and always at the last-minute. I would often have a glass of wine in my hand while helping, as it would be after 5 o’clock!
We went to see a basketball game, as a family. It was fun! Actually fun, with no alcohol involved. I was there, present and in the moment – not distracted, thinking about where and how I was going to get my next drink.
I know to a lot of people these things are not very special but I’m grateful for being sober so I could do these, not very special things, because when I was drinking I couldn’t or didn’t do these things properly and I never want to forget that. x