Yesterday I received a belated birthday present. A lovely bottle of Prosecco! I honestly didn’t know what to say. I graciously thanked them and put it out of sight. It’s made me realise that since beginning this journey of sobriety, concentrating and obsessing over not drinking, I’ve been doing it very privately.
Only a handful of people know I’m not drinking and they have only been told that I’m not drinking, for now. No real reason has been given, apart from, it doesn’t agree with me anymore and I’m sick of dealing with the hangovers. Only hubby knows the real reason. (My complete lack of control of alcohol and how hard it has been giving up.)
Well, I cannot hide it forever. If this is the life change I want it to be, I have to be more honest with myself and the people around me. While I still don’t feel confidant to shout out “I’m an alcoholic”. I do think I have to at least tell people I’m no longer drinking.
For now I think I’ll continue to tell people that drinking just doesn’t agree with me anymore. (it’s kind of true, me and drink definitely do not agree with each other) I’m hoping that once people realise I’m not drinking for now, it’ll take the pressure off and over time people will just accept that I don’t drink.
Who knows it might work? What do you lot tell people? I think I will be more honest with close friends and family in time. But how do you handle the masses? I definitely think I need to start telling people something, rather than receiving bottles of Prosecco.
P.S. Hubby has been instructed to hide the said bottle until I can pass it onto someone else. I don’t think I would drink it, but I’m not going to take the risk. x