It’s coming to the end of my 4th year Sober.
Today has been just an ordinary day; nothing special.
This means I enjoyed helping the kids with their school work (including finding out who invented Tarmac!).
Eating lunch with Mr Mac and having time to catch up.
Watching some episodes of a teen series with my daughter.
I had time to talk to my son about helicopters and computer games. It’s all far more advanced than the Spectrum ZX I had as a kid.
Plus, we all enjoyed a nice family meal together at dinnertime. This still includes fart jokes and discussing funny meme’s; which I still don’t always get but I’m not complaining.
I’m now all tucked up in bed, reflecting on the day. Which I can conclude, has been great. I feel calm, happy and content.
This is a far cry from where I was 4 years ago.
The amount I was drinking left me too tired to give the people I care about most in life, the attention they deserved.
My hangovers left me anxious and full of remorse because I’d drank yet again after I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I constantly felt shame and self loathing for not being able to control my drinking.
Nothing I did made me feel better until I just stopped drinking.
Cutting out the alcohol completely may have been hard in the beginning but it has enabled me to like myself again.
I have learned how to deal with my emotions and how to navigate difficult situations, without reaching for the bottle.
I am a better friend, sister, daughter wife and mother. I have learned to reach out when I need help and that I can be there for others by just listening.
I have created a better life. One that makes me and the people around me happier.
Now, life is not always a bed of roses but boy is it better Sober.
If this ordinary day can make me this happy and full of gratitude then I must be doing something right.
Being Sober is still one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. x
Mrs Mac