Reflection – Day 590

Things are good here. Around this time last year, I had just attended my first AA meeting. I am glad I gave AA a go. I was already 7 months sober when I decided to go. At the time I was stuck in a rut and feeling a bit lonely in my sobriety and I am a big believer that you need to try new things and add things when you are feeling vulnerable.

I found listening to people share their stories really helpful and I went to AA religiously for about 2 months leading up to Christmas. It made me feel less alone and stronger. After a while though, it turned out it wasn’t for me.

I realised I didn’t want to work the steps or have a higher power. The best thing about AA is, you can just take the bits you like. I can still pop in anytime I want to listen to people share. I am lucky that there is a large woman’s meeting on a Monday, where I can easily sit in the back and just listen if I want too. The thing is, I find I need it less and less but at least I know it’s always there.

AA will forever be in my tool box but why am I talking about it now? I guess I’m just reflecting on how far I have come. How different this November is compared to how I was feeling last November. And, how different I will feel next November.

I feel so much more settled in my sobriety and I have done so for a while now. This is because I try to do different things and add things to my toolbox when I need it.

I find trying new things nerve wrecking but immensely helpful. It can only be view as a positive thing in my book, even if I don’t stick at it.

If you have been considering something new, be it AA, SMART Recovery, cooking, walking or taking up abseiling. I say, give it a go! It doesn’t have to be anything big. Small changes are the best in my opinion. x

Mrs Mac