S.A.D – Day 711

Come on Spring, where are you? I am sure I suffer a little from SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). I’ve been up and down for the past few months. One minute, I want to be left alone; hibernate as I can hardly muster up the energy to do anything. Then the next minute I’m pissed off I never go anywhere or do anything fun! I cannot win eh!

My anxiety is pushing back. I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by things that don’t usually bother me. Kids school commitments and finding a new hairdresser. Talk about first world problems.

Sobriety wise, things are good. Getting sober is still the best thing I have ever done. I do not doubt my decision to be sober. However, as I near my two year sober anniversary, I am wondering why my mood has got worse. Is it just the winter blues?

My first 6 months of sobriety was terrible, cravings wise and anxiety wise. Then, things started to get better. I tackled all my sober firsts and I felt strong both in my sobriety and my mental health. However, I now feel like my anxiety is moving back in. x

Luckily, this does not make me want to drink but I feel like I need to do something for my own wellbeing. The only problem is when my mood plummets it just makes me feel like doing nothing argh!

Here’s hoping spring and summer will bolster my mood and lift me out of my winter funk. If I do one thing this week it will be to get outside my head by blogging more and get outside my house by walking more. Okay, I realise that’s two things x

Mrs Mac