Sleepless – Day 5

I need to talk about my brain not switching off on a night time. All day yesterday I felt unfocused and not able to think straight. A few thoughts of alcohol had popped into my head but I think that was more habit than cravings at the moment. However, on a night time, boy does my brain come alive. Not in a stressed-out way, like when you’re worried about something but rather just random thoughts popping in and out, constant noise!

I’m thinking “why” I’ve always been able to get to sleep no problem. The only reason I can come up with is that it’s been a very long time since I have had to put myself to sleep. Like a child, I am learning to put myself to sleep on a night time.

You see, it dawned on me that every night for the past god knows how long, 10 years?? I have just slipped into an alcohol induced coma. A bottle and a half of wine, monged in front of the TV, then dragging myself up to bed. Well it’s easy to fall asleep (or pass out ) when you’ve had a skin full of wine, isn’t it.

Let’s hope this settles down soon. How long can it take to train your brain to shut up and go to sleep? On the plus side, once I do get to sleep, I wake up feeling fab. No fuzzy head or feeling bad about drinking – got to keep this positive. x

Mrs Mac